My Latest Journey

Note: Last essay that I created before the Final Screening in Columban.

Our Charismatic Youth Ministry in Our Lady of Grace Parish.
 We had a one day recollection in this place near NLEX Sta. Ines, Mabalacat, Pampanga

Struggles, hinders coming my way

But God never want me to astray

He always reminded me and say

“Never stop but continue to play”

It is a roller coaster journey up way to my vocation. This coming March it will be my life changing moment. Maybe, after this month there will be two paths that I may walk to – way to my vocation as a teacher and way towards to more committed religious life and I pray to guide me to find a way to the “calling” that I have. I’m very happy that God gave me hope to continue my journey. Sometimes I lose my hope but he always reminded me to never give up. I remember a Filipino worship song “Sa Diyos lamang mapapatag ang aking kaluluwa, sa kanya nagmumula ang aking pag-asa at kaligtasan, O Dios ikaw ang aking kaligtasan, nasa iyo ang kaluwalhatian, ikaw lamang ang aking inaasahan ang aking moog at tanggulan” In God my soul will feel relieve, my soul became calm and relax because God is in my side, God embrace me, he is always let me feel his spirit, his everlasting love and care. He guards me from harm.

The month of February in the year 2010 is a confirmation by God to find myself and be ready to discern in my call to the priesthood and I gave myself time to retreat and talk to God more often. It is not an easy journey, pains and downfall coming my way. There are times that I question God’s love. But I’m very happy that today in this moment of my life the vocation is still burning and alive. I know there are a lot of pains and sacrifices that coming my way to achieve to be servant of the Lord but I’m ready to ride to a roller coaster. Ready for adventure, never frighten to the speedy moment and ready to shout and praise God and give my love to God our creator.

I hope and pray that my vocation in priesthood nurtures by time and experiences. Became bloom and transform by people who will be used by God to mould me to become a great Priest someday. When my journey to vocation as a priest accepted by Columban everything will be changed and it is start of a more meaningful life coming my way and a life that changes the heart of people of God, humble and faithful servant of the Lord.

My journey is not the end yet

God has a great plan to set

Never think of something not best

Because God creates me to be the best

LAUS DEO SEMPER! God Praise Always!

Reggie O. Cruz

Servant of the Lord

February 15, 2011

10:17pm

Number 6:24-26

"The LORD bless you and keep you;the LORD make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD turn his face toward you and give you peace"

I found this passage to a page on facebook - 100% katolikong Pinoy. It is a nice reflection before I will take my sleep this evening and be ready for tomorrow journey. Truly the Lord is within us and he bless us always. He wants us to be happy and inspired. One day I'm been in a bad condition, I' very lonesome but I found myself writing essays and making a blogsite for english essays. So this is a product of blessing of God. He wants me to Keep me, to shine upon my face in times of weary and difficultie. He always put me to a dusty and rocky road but an meaningful journey in finding a true peace inside. God never leave me.

Sometimes I thought he is nothing, but he find ways
I lose him but he always see to it that I may trace
I found myself confused but he is solving a maze
He is giving me pain to gain something and realize

God grace is always with us and He is always to give us light and heat to survive

1 John 2:15-16

Today, I'm very lonely and uninspired but the Lord trying to make me happy. This passage from the Book of John really Touches my heart. allow me to quote it.

"Do not love the world,
Nor the things that are in the world
If anyone love the world,
The Love of the Father is not in him.
Because all that is in the world,
is the lust of the flesh,
and the lust of the eyes,
and the pride of life;
which is not from the Father
but from the world."

It is a beautiful passage! To start with this year 2011. I said to myself that it is the start of my vocation journey. Everyday it seems to be serious and thank God this day I open a Marian Retreat book by Bernard J. Lefrois, SVD and materialism and earthly pleasure is a main concern. In our life it is hard to detach with the things we have. Let us be simple with our example - Cellphone is one of them- it become a part but a addiction to us Filipinos. We want a extravagant life - a house, car, jewelries it is like we salivate with this thing that we forgot to see a happy thought of praising God and serving the Almighty by the means of other. We center thyself with selfish happiness rather than sacrifice thyself for the happiness for mankind to develop so called Authentic happiness. Because we own by Christ not for own self. We create by our Lord to help one another not to go on with our comfort zone.

Happy New year to all!

Praise God Always! I Love you Lord

End of Downfall, Start of Rising

This was the picture after the crying times.. after all, Columbans allow me to pursue my discernment. Taken November 2010. I don't know the exact day ehehe. (me, My beautiful Mom and Father Rolly Aniscal, SSC)

I remember a Filipino saying about a wheel of Life "Ang buhay ay parang gulong, Minsan nasa Ibaba, Minsan Nasa itaas" There are times we are in our highest peak in life but all of the sudden, you feel you are in a down part of your wheel.
Few months ago in a moment I talk to a BISHOP I felt the rejection, the incapacity of being a PRIEST because of a aspect of Family background. I felt the rejection and downfall begin to move. Satan rule my world in that moment.. I don't want to serve Christ, In a moment of my confusion, I said to myself that I am already broken. I cannot move on, I don't want to rise. Path of evil begin to move in my life and in a glimpse.. Together with columban companion (Father Rolly and Bro. Johans) used them by God to embrace me again, throw all my worries and start a new life. In my last text message to father Rolly I said to him "I feel God throw away heavy tons in my back, he accept me with all his heart. I sing and praise with his presence and love.. :-)" Today in my glorious moment, in this time, in my humble heart.. i am confirmed by God, God never reject me nor said to me that brokenness will a hindrance to serve him deeper. God accept me whatever what is my weakness and emptiness. He feel those emptiness. He hug and let me said that everything will be ok.
Laus Deo Semper!
Allelulia, Alleluia, Alleluia